Vibha can't write

Sometime back, a dear friend scrapped me..[and literally ‘scarpped’ me] saying that I should change my blog name to ‘Vibha doesn’t write’!! Thanks yaar!!! Love u for this upfront ness!! [or can also be called ‘puneripana’]
But then she is right. I haven’t written in ages. I was in Delhi for two months writing a play. I wrote about 6 drafts! I was over and out with it. [ I am damn good at giving excuses eh?] I thought I can’t write no more!
I feel like….I want to..some thing happens…in the heart..and the mind. [ if at all these are two different organs at two different locations] But I just can’t get myself to write. Sometimes there is so much I want to say..it is so much that I feel I am choked. I feel there just aren’t enough words that can say all of it. [Guys……this IS NOT a sign of a poet, or a genius writer…this is just a stupid lazy woman trying to update her blog..and proving her puneri friend wrong]
At times I feel I have gotten into this habit of using the tool of language to write something impressive. Just an attempt to prove that I still write. Just a way of telling myself and others how I am different than the rest. But I sometimes feel do I really have something to say? Do I have to write? And then I don’t.
But then I do..becuase I need to…because probably that is ALL I can do.
I guess I should sign off..I am incoherent…but folks…I did write….
Can Vibha write…..even if she can, she doesn’t!! And I hate her for that!!!!!